What does actually matter?
I have been told that college should be the only thing on my mind right now and it is. But i dont want it to be. I have just found my friends, my group of people and we have been solidified as friends. But now college seems to be getting in the way.
I just keep moving farther away and college hasnt even started yet.
Also my obligation and plans to hang out with other friends in other places seems to ruin good moments that are in the now.
I think i should stop planning and just let it ride.
I cant though "Josh, college is the next big step in your life, you need to plan to be successful", i dont want to, but how do you say no to that?
I have also come to the realization that no one is going to read this, so this is just a journal in a way. Preserving my memories and feelings for future dates or boredom. This seems to be just for me. A good way for me to spill my feelings without anyone pestering me with why i look depressed when i really am not. A good way for me to just get what i feel out there, and know, that no one will look at it. This is not a call for help, but more of a way for whomever reads this to understand me better. To look into a mind that seems to change so much.
except maybe my colleges. hmmmmm. thats a funny thought. If you are reading. HI :) hahahhaha
also this post reminds me of the song "Sweet Disposition", i love that song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vN7HQrgakZU
Hmmmmm, good day ahead of me though. My best friends birthday. Gunna help him with designing his room for future trips into the matrix. Good days ahed, lets see if i can make the best of them...eh?
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