Relationships

"Tomorrow I'll wake up, do some P90X
Find a really nice girl, have some really nice sex"


were it so easy...


hahahahaha. so whats on my mind this morning? 
well, relationships. 
They are a very easy concept. Two people coming together with common interests. 


There are, obviously, different levels of relationships. 
-a simple relationship is just a common interest simple as a video game. 


-friendship is multiple interests that people can relate to and talk about on a deep level.


now the hard one...


-when two people come together and express their love for each other. Now thats a great relationship. 
Some may call it boyfriend girlfriend others marriage. Some people can love each other and not be boyfriend girlfriend and just be really great friends, thats best friends. 


so relationships in general are very easy to me. 
Want a good one? 
always tell each other the truth, if they can except it and take it as criticism or as a way to improve on their character, then that person isnt the right person. 
Some may get mad, and that is fine, but when in a relationship, the two people need to work together to make themselves better people for each other.  


now, there are obviously other things in relationship that the two people need to make it work. 
But, in my opinion, at the core you need trust. Thats how it works. 
If you cant tell one another what is on your mind then it wont work. 


and it is an easy concept for me. always tell the truth. dont lie to one another. make sure your connection is the best. 
you start to develop trust. 
and that is the best part. Knowing that someone knows you in and out and you trust that person and they trust you. That is the most rewarding thing in a relationship for me. 
for me, not for everyone. 


so. i just completely lost my train of thought. 
fuck. hahahaha


ummm. i dont know if i have ADD or ADDHD but sometimes i think i do. I think i can control it to a certain point. but its whatever. it doesnt really matter. its just a mental thing. i can do anything i put my mind to, and never tell me other wise. 


soo yea. 
"thats all i have to say about that."
(for the ones that know what that is from, you are the best :D) 


so why talk about relationships today? well, one of my bestfriends keeps getting into these predicaments with his significant other...lol
its an easy fix. but when you are caught up in it all its sometimes very hard to see the answer to the problem. and i try to help, but i cant always help. i just give them a way to help each other.
so they can grow closer together, so they can trust each other. so they can accept it. 


when talking to them i had to tell them that i have been in some...
lets call it "emotional turmoil" 
yea? hahaha 
and it is very hard for me to tell people that. 


why? 


well, i can give advice from time to time, it sometimes helps people and sometimes i dont help at all. 
But, for the life of me, i cant follow my own advice. 
I never tell people my feelings. never. 
i have only done it to two people in my life. These people, i know can help me. I know they can take it and try to help me with all of their life. I also know that if i tell these people how i feel they wont die. and stress out over me. 


so why only two people? well cause if i told everyone then i would be an open book. 
i can have that. to easy to hurt me. 


so now, the main point, one of those two people turned out to ummm 
how do i say it
uhhhh 
disappear? leave me? 
ummm lets say that this person turned out that they cant multi task. 
hahahaah lets just say that. 


so, now i have only one person i can talk to about everything. and it really hurt me that i only have one instead of two. i opened up to that person, and now they arent there anymore to help. 


it sucks. so if i stay closed and only stay with this one person then i wont get hurt anymore. 


its not the best way to live. But i have done it for some time now and i didnt have that much stress untill this person came into my life. 


so im just going to stick with it. its my strategy AND i do NOT recommend it for other people. 
its good to be open to people, i just cant handle it, it just doesnt work for me. 


so, i hope this helped someone. or if not, well just comment and tell me what you think! am i wrong? am i right? 


have a good day :) 
ill post later tonight.